today

RANDOM BASTARD just knock on me delibrately and scold me that i shouldn't use the entire path way..... must be a SUPER lousy day for him... scolding random ppl like me....
anyway... went back NJ to get cert... see lots of teachers... chat for at least an hour.... still din see the three teacher that really pushed me.... ting, lim and ducro...
haha.... must be bz giving consultations....
oh well.... things are fine in NJ... met so juniors too... but din see SW around... a bit disappointed.... still see yiping and adrian though.... all the smart ones... the rest all go back mug their last paper...
lol... i just feel so happy that i no need to go through that again... haha at least now the stress comes in a slightly different form... although more challenging but not as mundane...
in good mood now....

SLACK

First day of recess week (ignoring sunday), slack slack slack.... only read uni physics only takes like super long... haven start questions yet... then tmr i really wonder how to start math.... lucky cs i understand most parts.... now just need to read through and memorise some parts....
oh well... guess i will just start after dinner ba...

Heart broken....

due to my clumsiness, i din manage to go back malaysia... thinking that i shld just stay behind and do serious mugging b4 the mid terms... i saw my sis fb saying that she miss me.... argh!!!! i seriously dunno wad to do without compromising all the promises to my friends and activities.... for now i just tell her to chill and i will be back soon... maybe e-learning week ba....

I got a new blog...

this time round, pls ask if u want the link...

HAHA

HAHA... i din noe careless writing will lead to such huge response.... i cant believe ppl actually bother to read my blog.... since i always feel that i am not so interesting tat they willing to spend time reading my blogs (at least to some readers)... somemore got porn link in my comment.... totally unexpected..... haha... at least i discover something after i realise i cannot go back malaysia.... i wonder if i went back to malaysia... wtf will happen to me den.... i think some damage is done.... no point regreting but to just move on and see what happen....
to those still dun get the flow of my blog, dun bother. I never attempt to organise my thots when i write my blog..... hahah

HAHAHAHAHA

Due to some extreme responses and some advices, I decided to delete my previous post...
Apparently it did some damage to my image? Anyway.... I think i need a new blog for that kind of random and often misleading stuff....

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Always have this "void" feeling when I am talking to people...
like i have not lived at all, no memories, no experience, no feelings at all....
it is so scary that i am like living in my dream.... not in control of things around me...
I can touch the things... I can have emotions (out of )... But I form no thoughts... no opinion... no personal feelings.....
How can I live out of this dream.... this not so nightmare type of nightmare... so comfortable... so easy but no soul, no meaning... all this random thoughts....
I have no flow in my thinking..... maybe i am not thinking .... maybe it is just another random idea....