读后感

H2 novel is another classic example of how cruel this REAL world is....
But unlike me, he took action and follow his heart. Even though that would mean breaking his heart again, he went for it. I really dunno what on earth is pulling me back from HER.... there is just no courage to step up to her... no effort to try to find her... no effort to even keep in contact with her...
Or just I dun dare... that fear of unknown territory is pulling me back.... I started to use CAP as excuse, to use Eng as my last time i willingly to love as excuse, started to just wait for SW to change her heart, started to just wait for me to go back MAL first.... I DUN WANT.... BUT I WANT....
WTH do I want man.... I dun noe.... somemore my self control is so strong until i never told my true true feeling coz i locked it aside and never knew i had one....

ENGIN rawks!!!!!

First day of sch!!! Not bad lar.... consider the fact that all the lecturers are so relaxed and poised and articulate.... Shld be a decent semester ahead. Still NOt used to that super late CCA timings... Finish AIESEC intro talk at 9 plus!!!! then Bring cheng xiang to makan at Fong Seng... so Shag lar.. but since lesson starts at 1 tmr... i can get enough rest then... Pretty gals kinda few in engin... Darn the fact that i knew most of the pretty gals alr.... no surpise and new opportunities.... O week was realtively fun but i find it more like a formality.... but the OG quite supportive though NOt really "vocal".... BUt good enough to Have HTH session i supposed.... But i'm too lousy at keeping awake at midnight (or early morning).... always wanna fall asleep during the games... Quite a decent start to my UNI life in NUS... and hope that more fun will come!!!

Angels...

Thank you sheena.... thank you mayday.... thank you for saving me from THE great depression.....
added on: maybe it was fate that i watched 蕭煌奇video at a night where so many sorrows just surfaced... his voice just reminded me that there is nothing in the world we can't... He sees something that we with perfect eyes cannot see sometimes and that is hope.....

Feeling weird again.....

I am going to work because my dad is going to china to see his "other" son because the "poor" child is running fever.... Need to help him take care of office... Then i see his very own brother try to sell off every roundneck we have at a super low price just for HIS customers when my dad say we could earn much more by selling slowly..... Why am I in this messed up family conflicts? Going to work thinking my dad is visiting that very mistress that tore my family apart and witnessing his brother doing stupid things just to make my dad angry are worse than anything I have experience in life and yet I dunno how to react. Should I cried? I did for the past six years... Should I be agitated? I punched in the air furiously before. Doesn't work..... Should I talk to friends? Jean maybe but she is busy and even her words can only serve as temporary relief... I really don't know what kind of attitude should I have facing all these mess..... And my Dad worried that he might embrass me in front of my friends by answering that stupid mistress call when he is driving us down to Singapore.... Why must he mention it at all? I am so depressed after hearing that... Ignorance dun work anymore. My mum is getting more and more hot tempered with all the shit she facing and threatens to leave us with dad forever.... I had enough of all this shit and seriously I can't wait to leave this mess behind when I study in Singapore just to feel a bit better when my friends cannot do more damage to my broken heart.... Fuck it!!!!!

holidaying with SAF

Kudos to yao liang for his ultimate commitment to both NS and his accounting degree... Hardcore Student!!!! SAF Seaview Resort is Fantastic. Feels like staying in a villa. With 2 flat screen TV, five AC and a complete set of plates and cups, it made our stay there so comfortable. Good choice, YL. The sad part is that the beach is filled with so many branches and leaves and rubbish!! Not much outdoor acivities... Dodging was fun though... Haha I forgot... We still have a DVD player there... we watched Silent Hill in broad daylight and yet some people still scared and even jumped, yes, SOME poeple still whining in denial. emmm... did a relatively nice surprise for YL's birthday. We did a raining balloon at the staircase which all the ballons ended up in the toilet (sounds weird rite?). Played all the standard chalet games like murderer, snap, heart attack, truth or dare, mahjong, bridge, da di... wasting time away playing those games.... Shld have stayed over on monday nitez, darn... Oh wells.... That should end my carefree 8 month holiday for good. NUS here I come!!!

Beach boys

Have been revisiting my all time favourite Japanese drama, Beach boys... somehow it reminds me of "Don't tell mama"... these japanese series always make me feel that my life is so empty. like the world is so darn big but I still stuck in KL or Singapore... Really want to throw everything aside and start something totally new... Plan to earn lots and lots of money B4 i go start a shop beside the beach with my dear wife for the rest of my life... Somewhere not as famous as Cherating but simple and beautiful.... Guess i need a Malay friend first, haha....

random entry....

emmm..... kena rejected by hall but go to PGP... maybe this is a blessing in disguise. to be closer with allmy friends?