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Always have this "void" feeling when I am talking to people...
like i have not lived at all, no memories, no experience, no feelings at all....
it is so scary that i am like living in my dream.... not in control of things around me...
I can touch the things... I can have emotions (out of )... But I form no thoughts... no opinion... no personal feelings.....
How can I live out of this dream.... this not so nightmare type of nightmare... so comfortable... so easy but no soul, no meaning... all this random thoughts....
I have no flow in my thinking..... maybe i am not thinking .... maybe it is just another random idea....