today

RANDOM BASTARD just knock on me delibrately and scold me that i shouldn't use the entire path way..... must be a SUPER lousy day for him... scolding random ppl like me....
anyway... went back NJ to get cert... see lots of teachers... chat for at least an hour.... still din see the three teacher that really pushed me.... ting, lim and ducro...
haha.... must be bz giving consultations....
oh well.... things are fine in NJ... met so juniors too... but din see SW around... a bit disappointed.... still see yiping and adrian though.... all the smart ones... the rest all go back mug their last paper...
lol... i just feel so happy that i no need to go through that again... haha at least now the stress comes in a slightly different form... although more challenging but not as mundane...
in good mood now....

SLACK

First day of recess week (ignoring sunday), slack slack slack.... only read uni physics only takes like super long... haven start questions yet... then tmr i really wonder how to start math.... lucky cs i understand most parts.... now just need to read through and memorise some parts....
oh well... guess i will just start after dinner ba...

Heart broken....

due to my clumsiness, i din manage to go back malaysia... thinking that i shld just stay behind and do serious mugging b4 the mid terms... i saw my sis fb saying that she miss me.... argh!!!! i seriously dunno wad to do without compromising all the promises to my friends and activities.... for now i just tell her to chill and i will be back soon... maybe e-learning week ba....

I got a new blog...

this time round, pls ask if u want the link...

HAHA

HAHA... i din noe careless writing will lead to such huge response.... i cant believe ppl actually bother to read my blog.... since i always feel that i am not so interesting tat they willing to spend time reading my blogs (at least to some readers)... somemore got porn link in my comment.... totally unexpected..... haha... at least i discover something after i realise i cannot go back malaysia.... i wonder if i went back to malaysia... wtf will happen to me den.... i think some damage is done.... no point regreting but to just move on and see what happen....
to those still dun get the flow of my blog, dun bother. I never attempt to organise my thots when i write my blog..... hahah

HAHAHAHAHA

Due to some extreme responses and some advices, I decided to delete my previous post...
Apparently it did some damage to my image? Anyway.... I think i need a new blog for that kind of random and often misleading stuff....

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Always have this "void" feeling when I am talking to people...
like i have not lived at all, no memories, no experience, no feelings at all....
it is so scary that i am like living in my dream.... not in control of things around me...
I can touch the things... I can have emotions (out of )... But I form no thoughts... no opinion... no personal feelings.....
How can I live out of this dream.... this not so nightmare type of nightmare... so comfortable... so easy but no soul, no meaning... all this random thoughts....
I have no flow in my thinking..... maybe i am not thinking .... maybe it is just another random idea....

读后感

H2 novel is another classic example of how cruel this REAL world is....
But unlike me, he took action and follow his heart. Even though that would mean breaking his heart again, he went for it. I really dunno what on earth is pulling me back from HER.... there is just no courage to step up to her... no effort to try to find her... no effort to even keep in contact with her...
Or just I dun dare... that fear of unknown territory is pulling me back.... I started to use CAP as excuse, to use Eng as my last time i willingly to love as excuse, started to just wait for SW to change her heart, started to just wait for me to go back MAL first.... I DUN WANT.... BUT I WANT....
WTH do I want man.... I dun noe.... somemore my self control is so strong until i never told my true true feeling coz i locked it aside and never knew i had one....

ENGIN rawks!!!!!

First day of sch!!! Not bad lar.... consider the fact that all the lecturers are so relaxed and poised and articulate.... Shld be a decent semester ahead. Still NOt used to that super late CCA timings... Finish AIESEC intro talk at 9 plus!!!! then Bring cheng xiang to makan at Fong Seng... so Shag lar.. but since lesson starts at 1 tmr... i can get enough rest then... Pretty gals kinda few in engin... Darn the fact that i knew most of the pretty gals alr.... no surpise and new opportunities.... O week was realtively fun but i find it more like a formality.... but the OG quite supportive though NOt really "vocal".... BUt good enough to Have HTH session i supposed.... But i'm too lousy at keeping awake at midnight (or early morning).... always wanna fall asleep during the games... Quite a decent start to my UNI life in NUS... and hope that more fun will come!!!

Angels...

Thank you sheena.... thank you mayday.... thank you for saving me from THE great depression.....
added on: maybe it was fate that i watched 蕭煌奇video at a night where so many sorrows just surfaced... his voice just reminded me that there is nothing in the world we can't... He sees something that we with perfect eyes cannot see sometimes and that is hope.....

Feeling weird again.....

I am going to work because my dad is going to china to see his "other" son because the "poor" child is running fever.... Need to help him take care of office... Then i see his very own brother try to sell off every roundneck we have at a super low price just for HIS customers when my dad say we could earn much more by selling slowly..... Why am I in this messed up family conflicts? Going to work thinking my dad is visiting that very mistress that tore my family apart and witnessing his brother doing stupid things just to make my dad angry are worse than anything I have experience in life and yet I dunno how to react. Should I cried? I did for the past six years... Should I be agitated? I punched in the air furiously before. Doesn't work..... Should I talk to friends? Jean maybe but she is busy and even her words can only serve as temporary relief... I really don't know what kind of attitude should I have facing all these mess..... And my Dad worried that he might embrass me in front of my friends by answering that stupid mistress call when he is driving us down to Singapore.... Why must he mention it at all? I am so depressed after hearing that... Ignorance dun work anymore. My mum is getting more and more hot tempered with all the shit she facing and threatens to leave us with dad forever.... I had enough of all this shit and seriously I can't wait to leave this mess behind when I study in Singapore just to feel a bit better when my friends cannot do more damage to my broken heart.... Fuck it!!!!!

holidaying with SAF

Kudos to yao liang for his ultimate commitment to both NS and his accounting degree... Hardcore Student!!!! SAF Seaview Resort is Fantastic. Feels like staying in a villa. With 2 flat screen TV, five AC and a complete set of plates and cups, it made our stay there so comfortable. Good choice, YL. The sad part is that the beach is filled with so many branches and leaves and rubbish!! Not much outdoor acivities... Dodging was fun though... Haha I forgot... We still have a DVD player there... we watched Silent Hill in broad daylight and yet some people still scared and even jumped, yes, SOME poeple still whining in denial. emmm... did a relatively nice surprise for YL's birthday. We did a raining balloon at the staircase which all the ballons ended up in the toilet (sounds weird rite?). Played all the standard chalet games like murderer, snap, heart attack, truth or dare, mahjong, bridge, da di... wasting time away playing those games.... Shld have stayed over on monday nitez, darn... Oh wells.... That should end my carefree 8 month holiday for good. NUS here I come!!!

Beach boys

Have been revisiting my all time favourite Japanese drama, Beach boys... somehow it reminds me of "Don't tell mama"... these japanese series always make me feel that my life is so empty. like the world is so darn big but I still stuck in KL or Singapore... Really want to throw everything aside and start something totally new... Plan to earn lots and lots of money B4 i go start a shop beside the beach with my dear wife for the rest of my life... Somewhere not as famous as Cherating but simple and beautiful.... Guess i need a Malay friend first, haha....

random entry....

emmm..... kena rejected by hall but go to PGP... maybe this is a blessing in disguise. to be closer with allmy friends?

Direct Movie Review

Fighting Sux.....

11/06/2009... my blog is one years old alr....

hais.... i thot wad they planned for me... onli lunch onli.... then waste Pei yi's effort trying to get ppl to out.... SIck somemore... super sien.... NOw shin yew's remain uncontacted abt his reunited class.... wad a birthday.... now at least meeting MJ tmr.... hope we got stuff to do... hate the awkward feeling that "i am not being myself subconsciously" everytime i meet H2... still hope to celebrate my bdae like i did with andrew, ze yi (NJC), eng kwan, wen si and theresa where everything is at my frequency.....

CLoser to 19... Cherating beach

HAHA... i din noe ppl are waiting for my blog...
Just back from Cherating.... from the nooby P6 graduates to the "desperate" guys hunting for hot Gals in the middle of night, this trip has all the makings of a classic. From the EPIC Singapore- Bahau trip, to the HIDDEN conspiracy of ALL the screw ups (directed by Chia weei), and the Historical Attempt to Conquer the world, we certain have gone through a memorable and fun trip in Kuantan. All thanks to Joshua and his family for planning and subsiding our 18 years old BREAKTHROUGH trip. Makan was a pleasure with all the stuffed crabs, fresh seafood alongside with all the eye candies with really short pants (LOL).... Din really have much private chats and catchups with some people but just be a standard 跟屁虫 and follow the crowd and laugh at all the jokes. Supposed to use FUCK as my puctuation mark more often with them but din really do that on the trip... Got sunburn all over my back. Ouch!!!
There was a moment when everyone was randomly wishing happy birthday to everybody and none realised that mine was actually 2 days later. Feel a WEE BIT of disappointment but still quite happy with the trip...
Wasn't very emo lately and really put down K from my heart alr... Thats y i din really blog so much nowadays. May and April was the LOW month I guess...
so now just waiting for my NUS life to commence soon....

More about myself (for myself)...

I realised I can get seriously mad and angry when people just dun trust me and keep saying I am wrong even I am wrong.... that surge of anger just burst out from my heart and feel like scolding and punch that person... Not something I am proud of of course but something that I just want to share and hope poeple can understand when I can't hold the anger...

Quite a irritatingly emo afternoon at office

I am not very emo to write a long entry but seriously feels super sad over the horrible relationship between my dad and uncle.... quarrel over business. Now almost wanna spilt the company... I dunno how should I treat this... Not entirely my business but i feel that i am involved also....

random

Been BZ with Uni stuff again...
I miss my girl.... Dream of her dunno how many time le...

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Living in the virtual world... my soul stuck in this extremely talented young man who just got all the possible awards that a footballer might get. the real world is too boring to me now. Missing that girl who is busy with her exam, destined to fail that driving test, no more transport (at least to KL) for 9 days, Boston lost Garnett and Powe, Liverpool screwed up their cup hopes, and most of all, nothing interesting going on now.... Only hope is that i will get enough bukit practice and pass that long dwelt test and a scholarship interview arranged for me soon....

Living in the virtual world... my soul stuck in this extremely talented young man who just won

BOOOO!!!

Pissed off with the lady arranging my driving lesson...
Changed my last lesson and didn't inform me... That poor teacher horning in front of my house while i still sleeping. Supposed to be afternoon wad? Emm.. then tmr test already. My bukit really quite sucky need at least a few more tries.... but now no more le.. So really going for test unprepared at all. Never mind lor. Treat it as an experience and hopefully I will do better if I failed. Though it will be great that I passed but still not very convincing bukit technique to get that pass. Wish myself luck then.

LOL!!!

I broke my own record!!!! i wrote more than 20 entries alr!!!!!

LOL!!!

I broke my own record!!!! i wrote more than 20 entries alr!!!!!

Totally random entry...

that two brothers quarrel again this time over some "toxic" customers statements but not face to face but through the pity secretarywho endures these shit for ten years...
I hate smokers!!!! BIG TIME!!!! worsen my nose conditions. Next, people that dun reply my sms... A no reply is so much better than ignoring my concern... Then, people that dun trust me for the wrong reason....
I realised the only link between my mum and my dad is just money and just money. Even my 6 yrs sister also noe that...
ARGH!!!! office is darn HOT when there is no electricity....
I miss SOMEBODY.....
I want to PASS my driving lesson soon and go around KL ASAP.....

A long quote from JK Rowling's Speech at Harvard Commencement

.....Ultimately, we all have to decide for ourselves what constitutes failure, but the world is quite eager to give you a set of criteria ifyou let it. So I think it fair to say that by any conventional measure,a mere seven years after my graduation day, I had failed on an epicscale. An exceptionally short-lived marriage had imploded, and I wasjobless, a lone parent, and as poor as it is possible to be in modernBritain, without being homeless. The fears my parents had had for me,and that I had had for myself, had both come to pass, and by everyusual standard, I was the biggest failure I knew.Now, I am not going to stand here and tell you that failure is fun.That period of my life was a dark one, and I had no idea that there wasgoing to be what the press has since represented as a kind of fairytale resolution. I had no idea how far the tunnel extended, and for along time, any light at the end of it was a hope rather than a reality.So why do I talk about the benefits of failure? Simply becausefailure meant a stripping away of the inessential. I stopped pretendingto myself that I was anything other than what I was, and began todirect all my energy into finishing the only work that mattered to me.Had I really succeeded at anything else, I might never have found thedetermination to succeed in the one arena I believed I truly belonged.I was set free, because my greatest fear had already been realised, andI was still alive, and I still had a daughter whom I adored, and I hadan old typewriter and a big idea. And so rock bottom became the solidfoundation on which I rebuilt my life.You might never fail on the scale I did, but some failure in life isinevitable. It is impossible to live without failing at something,unless you live so cautiously that you might as well not have lived atall – in which case, you fail by default.Failure gave me an inner security that I had never attained bypassing examinations. Failure taught me things about myself that Icould have learned no other way. I discovered that I had a strong will,and more discipline than I had suspected; I also found out that I hadfriends whose value was truly above rubies.The knowledge that you have emerged wiser and stronger from setbacksmeans that you are, ever after, secure in your ability to survive. Youwill never truly know yourself, or the strength of your relationships,until both have been tested by adversity. Such knowledge is a truegift, for all that it is painfully won, and it has been worth more tome than any qualification I ever earned.Given a time machine or a Time Turner, I would tell my 21-year-oldself that personal happiness lies in knowing that life is not acheck-list of acquisition or achievement. Your qualifications, your CV,are not your life, though you will meet many people of my age and olderwho confuse the two. Life is difficult, and complicated, and beyondanyone’s total control, and the humility to know that will enable youto survive its vicissitudes....

LifE?????

in retrospect of my six years in sg, on a quick thought, i think i have learnt nothing... but on much reflection, i have learnt plenty but it is because i have achieve nothing that i want to achieve. it makes me feel that six years of endevours is utterly wasted. I wanted a relationship (as in finding the right girl that i can protect and share my school life with), I wanted to top the school, I wanted to impress everybody in band, I wanted to be popular, I wanted to be tall, I wanted to be respected and the one that people look up to... i have achieve none of this. For that, it seems laughable to me that i am basically wasting my time worrying about studies and studies and studies that i dun have time for the rest. Until now i dun have an answer to that... looking at how my friends doing now, i do have some fears that i am not doing enough for myself. But what really is life. Is it about achieving everything i wanted? is it about being better than others? On hindsight, certain not! But what then my life should be? I always fantasised that my first girlfriend would solve and cure all the uncertainty to life... My current answer is love... But looking at how others break up and being hurted in the process, I doubted my answer. love though i haven't experience it should be that wonderful thing in life and not something we shld be dreadful of... but my world seems to tell me the opposite. so what then should be my life? loafing around too much and missing friends too much will make one psycho like me. Life is too short to be sad, emo and worry... what then is the answer... I yet to find out....

emo for what le?

I realise i dun think so much about what is the meaning of my life too much....
more of thinking how to improve myself from time to time. To impress myself and boost my confidence before I start to showcase myself to the others. Much like rehearsing before I face the audience. Somehow I set really high standard for myself in how should I carry myself and often failed to reach my own standards as I always embarrass myself in front of people. Be myself while I still can't really say what type of person I am is quite a diffcult task. All my Primary school friends can remember my e mail address already but thank god no one stupid enough to ask who I really am coz it is gonna be embarrasing to say I do not know... I live and just react according to what I really believe in at that moment. Individuality should be given not earning. So i shall not force myself to be somebody but juz go on with life....

More aBouT mE???

Likes to walk around in circles... imagine how mY faVorIte CeltiCs execute their offence... how I should drive pRoperly... how Should I ask the 3rD one out... basically, walking in small circles for about 20 plus times before i walk in reverse direction...

Likes to showoff he is better in almost everything... hates when he is one of the weakest... enjoys his prime time when He plays his solo nicely and hates when he is exhausted by the stupid high notes... enjoys the moment when he makes a beautiful shot and dread it when he cant stop missing his shots... hates when someone say you are very weak especially from my driving teacher.....

Likes to be with friends and dun mind friends be around him doing other things ... he juz like the accompany... Enjoys most of hostel life and hates his current stuck at home alone life... wish he can see at least one friend everyweek juz to have a 20 minutes chat over coffee...

Likes to watch band or orchestra... enjoys the moment when everybody blend with each other in sound, in music and in spirit...

Likes to discredit people as part of his "arsenal" of jokes... not intend to hurt but juz for fun...

Likes to hug anything and pretend that as his crush...

Likes to see people smile more and not juz being emotionless... coz he will start to worry about the seemingly sad friend... some times Overly worry until he or she pissed off...

Likes when people share some parts of their life with me... feels more human and realistic than people juz trying to joke and laugh and complain and entertain...

Likes pretty girls... (duh?)

Likes to give funny faces when he disagree or feels somethings is weird...

Likes to talk and talk and talk... makes him happy so dun tell him to shut up... born as a talkative person but forced not be one for 6 years... so let him have his freedom back...

Likes to Compare himself to everything better than him in life... and start to emo coz he is not as good...

Like to crack jokes to start a conversation...

Likes to close his eyes when he sits down... not to sleep but dun really like too much light....

Like to arrange his messy room, likes to do repeatative stuff and checking stock, likes to do things that dun require thinking and juz enjoy the fun of doing work....

Likes to type STE and KEL and JE and ERI and JOHN and SHEE everytime he is searching for someone to chat...

Like to whistle also... used to be darn good b4 the braces... but now he not so geng liao...

Dream girls part 2

BReak record.... the 3rd girl appeared in my dreams again this time at her house walking around dunno do wad... too brief an impression but the scene of her in her white T- shirt is unmistakable... She is also qUite eMo nowAdaYs. Dunno what she emo about. hope she will be alrite ba... Operation 6M starting soon... hope to really get to noe her problems and be there for her when she need me....

A truly UNorganised Thots...

Juz saw PM's blog... Translated.... in life we always return to the point where we originally are...
True but sometime we do return to multiple places and wandering are we the same person as we originally are and not changed to a so called new reference point of ourself... If life is a cycle, sometimes it takes ages for us to truly realise... juz like history will repeat itself... most of the time we do not learn from the past and continue to persist on our belief. We nEed more experiment to truly realise the pattern and learn our lesson. But some of us juz trust the law and do juz follow it. Others might think him or her having another NOrmAl life coz it is too simple or unsophisticated to stick to one law. But ultimately it is them who leAd a successful and friutful life while the rest just go through another typical sucessive failed experiments. The words of the wise are indeed wise... sometimes following tradition with a little twist of fun is a better guide to life... the law of life is yrself and trust yrself....

Youtube symphony

The very thought of gathering all the musician through youtube and google is amazing...
but whats more exciting is the music itself. heard the symphony played. The musicality is amazing and the orchestra blended well together. Maybe this is supposed to be the norm for pro musician but to me, the way they come to together in a common page is wonderful...
actually I reminds me of my Band Festival experience... meeting band members from other school and playing parts that you are super comfortable with and just concerntrate on the music... argh.... free from the worries of your fellow lazy members screwed things up, free from the pressure of training your sections, free from the trouble of difficult part (thanks lots to JIN JUN & WEN RONG), free from the worry that you will spoil the reputation of your own band...
Just play your own part... blend in with the section then the band... and then ENJOY the music...
I hope I can pick up my trumpet soon after I get rid of my braces and put myself in the same position where I can really enjoy music.... 2 years to go!!!

p.s I love the trumpet solo of eroica!!!!!

is it a matter of confidence?

emmm.... my lack of confidence in many aspects of my life is kinda well known among my better friends. But most of them thought i was being paranoid and all gave me the "you think too much" advice. I must say that they are all true that I might be worrying too much but succesive failures in my life have really dampen the already low confidence level of mine. Screwing up my "dates", always failed to show my best or even average performance in concert, overly panic during exams, always the insensitive comment coming put at inappropriate time, kena rejected for 2 times, nervous during presentation and speech, losing out "my" exco post...
I really not happy that I failed to achieve what I desired or expect to achieve. I don't want people trying to cheer me up. I want people come up and tell me what went wrong and guide me... Not just pity this little guy having another bad day. Too bad that I rely on FORMULAs to survive most of the challenges in my life and most of them are self-derived... Even more are unsolved and left there hanging and hurting me everytime I stumble... I am sick or tired of people just look at me and say too bad. Too many so called friends are like that. At least for me...
Is it the case of me being weak or is it the case of me facing it alone?

comin soon...

next entry must write how low self esteem kills my happiness in sg....
then muz not repeat again.... TBC

Another sunday...

Emm... got dejavu again... now at the DIgital Axis...
but can't play any of my new pc games le... my com sux!!!!
Gonna grab my dad ones and play de....

delayed disappointment....

This post is highly controversial...



Went to look that the band forum for 2007 SYF... actually I was expecting some comments for my band le... but after looking through the entire forum, there is only one line... "...deserved a gold..."onli...
Of coz i feel super disappointed... and I start to ask myself why our music do not left any impression in those people' mind... is it the type of music we played? is it the part where we went out of rhytm? is it our lack of musicality? I am not concern about the award we got but why we failed to communicate with the audience there... what have we not done?
late night practices? we did at NIE... even reached home at 11
tutors? we got almost one for each section...
no sense of continuation for rehearsal? we have prac every day b4 assembly...
lack star players? we do have strong players like ant, cindy, the trombone gals and so much more...
conductor? we have the most experienced conductor...
lack of bonding in band? just look at the clarinet section shirt...
why then we did not perform to the level we expected to the level we desired to the level we capable of...
is it just fate that we just screw up that day? I dunno....

Sick!!!!

Running nose, headache and more than 200 boxes need to carry and arrange...
Really is a torture to my body le... Haiz....
I wonder who drop in a comment... pls reveal yrself?

L.O.V.E

It always ended up with me asking myself what is love? Till now I found the 3rd girl that I really like... I still dunno what really love is... Love is just a natural feeling like an instant, uncontrolable body reaction be... (personally, i think this definition has room for improvement... haha) It makes me irrational, illogical and sometimes an embrassing person to be with. Oh well, guess this is the another beginning since the last Operation (ask if personally if u want to noe)....

忍

nothing i can do now.... although a bit jealous but still muz endure....
muz endure!!!!!! 忍!!!!!!!!

Dream Girls...

I have only two Real crushes in my life... and only two of them of all the pretty girls appeared in my dream before... haha... this morning, i woke up at 840 but went to sleep after i switch off the alarm... Third one appeared and we eat ice cream together... haha the fun part is i dun eve noe i have a crush on her alr...

Six years

It took me six years to talk to my dear cousins who were my playmate for six years... It took me six years to remember my new home address which we moved in six years ago...It took me six years to contact all my primary schools friends... It took me six years to realise the basketball court near my house... It took me six years to get to know people staying in my neighbourhood... It took me six years to know how to spell my sister's name properly... It took me six years just to have a real conversation with my separated parents... It took me six years to remember who I really am....

another entry....

I realised I can't watch scenes when good guys were being framed, when the girlfriend misunderstood her boyfriend...
basically i hate being misunderstood and also don't dare to see people being misunderstood. That feeling sucks. It always remind me of that last day at Dunman when i received that sms from Her.. the same day when I couldn't sleep the whole night... the same day i almost wanted to kill myself for being so insensitive... the same day i will regret for the rest of my life... the day i know i will never be the Old Jeff anymore...
haiz... despite the good news that andrew will join me in NJC the day after, that night is one of the longest night ever...

Some bad day today...

today har... so many things happened lar...
my mum cried early in the morning, i left my phone in her car, my dad got to attend some "unfinished" affairs, jun lam kept smsing me, my aunt desperately wants to find my mum but couldn't call her, my mum never pick up my call for over ten times... Argh!!!!
Turns up to be my uncle (mum side) juz passed away in hospital, my mum's phone spoil...
Emm... feel bad for my uncle's family... my cousin only 13 years old le... dunno he can take it or not. then i dunno how my aunt gonna support this family le. Shld go down to tanjung sepat and vist them tmr ba. Hope they can go through this difficult period soon.
haven't started to reflect yet... might do that soon...

One poor soul stuck in the rain

totally suay i think...
play bball halfway then rain...
i'm forced to seek shelter at the petrol station. the worst part is nobody is free to fetch me, and i forced to wait there for like 1 hour? well... my mind was blank then. juz staring at the motorcyclist seeking shelter like me and the attentants there.... try to push my luck by smsing a friend staying nearby but she cant make it... Well, juz another random experience.

Another Attempt to Write a Diary

Haha.. i totally forgot i have a blogspot account...
anyway, somemore random thoughts i had on April's fool...
Though it has nothing to do about jokes and pranks.

Dunno why everytime i see other ppl's pic onFB, I always so envy the ppl in the pic. Some part of me seems to complain: "Why I dun hav friends that likes to take picture wif me!!!" and some part of me worries that very friend in the pic remember me or not. Not necessary when the pic was taken but i wonder did i ever being recalled in my friend's mind for a minute...

Also i dunno y but keep getting the feeling that the rest of the world is doing SOMETHING but i'm not. Ppl taking pic b4 lectures (pardon fof the inconsistent short forms used), b4 submission of assignment, when they are bored, during their outings, blah blah blah... Always have something to do one... NOt like a free man like me loafing an emoing around. Haha, PM maybe wad i said the other time is correct de...

haiz... another day without post to the group. Dun really blame them for not posting on FB instead post to each other. Glad to see that Ppl are interacting but not wif me huh... Passive is never positive huh... But sometimes i really dun want to initiate conversation juz becoz i want to talk le... Feel better when ppl talk to me occasionally. Maybe once every three days? hehe... (a bit selfish here)

Should i ask her out? But she is so muggy and bz wif hw every night... a group outing shld be a good start but no one wants to go. Need to invite everyone meh? Xian... really wish i have at least a few friends to be available all the time... like always in satndby mode de...

First tightening isn't that bad at all... still can eat my favourite BAnMianKonLou haha... Another random comment... Sheena really prettier wor... really good skin le... wish my pimpleful face can be like hers.

Might sound weird here... Shld i get a GF? more like desperate for a friend gua... 6 years in SG only Johnson and Andrew and Jean maybe Jasmine can tune to my frequency de... dunno when will i get to noe another JEan, u noe wad i mean not the same name lar... then maybe i get my 1st GF? Dreaming now...

Well... life now is quite boring... onli PM willing to entertain tis lonely boy... haha